getting close to 36

I'm a night person. [That's what made me win my case today, when I was secretly yawning.] Yet it felt weird to stay awake till 3 in the morning and watch Marriage Story. What was even weirder was having a circle of Pedram's chat box floating on my phone screen.

It was also strange to join a book club, and act like everything is Normal. Like Zahra and Amir are just random people in the zoom club. Being adult is weird. Is strange. I'm not sure I ever get used to it.

I don't want to be an adult. It wasn't part of the deal to "act" mature. I never signed up for the constant crisis management.

I just wanna scream my disgust. And be playful. Sadistically playful. Torture my slaves, laugh hard, and just be extremely disgusted.

Perfect way to start my second half of life.